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Sunday, February 23, 2014

One deep breathe (Re-post)

So I started the idea for a new blog in January 2013. As a testament to the gravity of my damaged self-esteem, today is February 2014 already. I have failed to launch that blog for the past 13 months because I had a serious case of brain damage. I was my own worst enemy again- own worst doubter, most toxic person to rent the space in my own thoughts, the most "perfectionist" asshole ever that wouldn't allow me to share anything because it was not "good enough".

Yes, that's the kind of shit that happens when you willingly burden yourself with the shit of other people and then, because you have been raised as a good kid who cannot just sling it back into their faces, you try to run away and get too much inside your head.

Shit is shit and wherever you hide it, it will smell until you suffocate and it will kill you unless you flush it out of your system.Share on Twitter So being fed up with myself drowning in all the cheap drama, my first goal for 2014 was to rid myself of the burden. And boy, when I did that, I wanted to strangle myself for waiting so long to make it happen, aaarghh! But its done. I'm feeling much light-hearted now and healing quite nicely. I'm beginning to find my own voice again. And by all that's holy and shitty and not perfect, I WILL LAUNCH THIS BLOG FOR GOOD.

"Launch early and iterate often," says Google. I say, "Hell, just launch. Nothing's ever too late." This is my blog. I have all the freedom to see how it will change with me over time...

I hope you have fun reading, and learning from my mistakes. If you feel like you have something that you can share with me that I can write about or just make my own life better, please feel free to tell me, either through comments, or Google+.

You can rant if you feel annoyed or frustrated if its relevant to the content, just don't take a dump on my posts just because you feel like annoying someone today. C'mon, I'm trying to live a better life here, you might as well share something that will positively influence me and a handful of others as well.

You've got a heart as loud as lions
So why let your voice be tamed?
Baby we're a little different
There's no need to be ashamed
You've got the light to fight the shadows
So stop hiding it away
Come on, Come on

Yeah we're all wonderful, wonderful people
So when did we all get so fearful?

And now we're finally finding our voices
So take a chance, come help me sing this

August Bernadette


Posting history:
Originally appeared as the introductory post to, February 23, 2014.

kaigachi is a conjugation of the Japanese term "kigaicha" or crazy. It roughly translates as "crazy about something."

"One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light but by making the darkness conscious." - C.Jung

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